To runaway is easier than to confront my problem that need a lot of courage. If people always runaway, it can’t make an interesting life. People can change life to be good or bad. It depend each person’s opinion on the way of handling problems.
When I became the end of Gr8, I realized how my life is boring. There were no excitement and nothing new. Everyday was just like same and no exciting. I went school because school was only place to I can play softball which needs me to play. I was captain of Jr team and I was really busy to had meeting with couch and Sr team. Only softball gave me a reason to go to school and not any more. I went same school for fifteen years and same friends and nothing new. I was skipped school and back to school when the practice time comes. When I was Gr9, it was the worse year to me. On the other hand, it changed my life. At that time, I was totally broken down. I opposed to everything especially school teachers and parents. They only care about study and doesn’t matter about who am I. They only said “Study hard” or “Get a good mark”. Especially my parents gave me a lot of pressure that gave me much stress. My school was really famous private school in Japan that gave me a stress too. I lost myself. I couldn’t find who am I and what is the meaning to stay in here. I felt I am like a doll. I just study because teacher pushed me to do and I just went to school because parents proud me to go to that school. When I stopped study, my parents took me away to play softball. I really lost the reason to go to school and I stopped to go to school. I just hung out with my boyfriend everyday and back to home late night. My parents try to me back to school but I just ignore them because I still couldn’t find the meaning to go to that boring school and what do I want. On the other way, I hoped to my parents see real me and give me a free. During my little strike, I learned a lot of thing from my boyfriend. Maybe I couldn’t stand without him at that time but happy time was gone so fast. I really trust him and only I could open my mind to him but he cheated me. He was going out with the other girl even we still going out. How painful it was!? He totally broke my hart and I scar to trust people. It still happens to me. If people got the pain to their hart, it takes a long time to fix. I was stay home all of time and I couldn’t eat anything. One day I got e-mail from softball teammates. The provincial game was coming up and they need me to play. I was really happy for it. My situation was nothing changes even it’s getting worse, but I was really happy for someone needs me. I went to school next day and one of my class’ teacher came and she was really worried about me. I never tell anything about me to teacher because I couldn’t trust them. She was the only one teacher who I told about me. She was my English teacher and at the first time, we hated her because she was something different as any other teachers. However, everybody loves her English class that makes me really interest to learn English. She became the one’s teacher. Se gave me a huge choice which is to go to Canada. My life changed when met her.
After Graduate to junior high school, I fly to Canada. There were everything new and I was exciting for mew meeting. However, I was still kids at that time. Dream and reality is totally different. On September, I was jumped into the Gr10 and then I realized how much my parents helped me and how much I was depending on my parents. I was not scar to meet people but….I couldn’t talk because different language. In my life, I never be a quiet and never be without friends. How hard to be alone and how hard to stay in different world. I had wishful thinking. I came here because I like to learn English, I want to see a world, and I wanted independent from parents. On the other way, it means “running away from my problem”. Now, I can say I just runaway with convenient reason. However, I’m so glad to come to Canada. It changed everything to be good. I can see myself clear much better than stay in Japan. Actually I changed a lot and I can be more positive and I can hold own opinions much stronger than before. The greatest thing is me and my parent’s relation changed. It was the worse when I was in Japan. But now, I can tell most of thing to my parents and I feel thank you to them to bring me in Canada. Right now I can love my parents. They always love me and they are the best people to understand me.
After Graduate, I’m still stay in Canada to go to university. I had a lot of argument with my parents about stay in Canada or not. My parents would like me to back to Japan but I don’t want to. I know why they want me to back to Japan and I felt maybe back to Japan. However, I decide to stay in here. The big reason to stay in here was I want to grant my dream. Finally I found my hope and dream so I want to keep it grow until I grant it. I’m little sad to graduate high school but if I think about university, I can’t wait to go. I usually hung out with Canadian’s university friends who are really funny and nice. They always tell me about funny university life and they always said “come to our place quickly and having a party everyday together!!” That is the one of reason to exciting to go to university. On the other way, university is kind of one step to my dream. Now, I can feel really claim and relax even I can see myself well. I know life has a lot of obstacle and it will come to me again for sure. To me, obstacles make me strong and grow me up. I try to be strong but actually I was not. I’m so glad to meet a lot of friends and I’m still looking for to see something new and new meeting.
When I became the end of Gr8, I realized how my life is boring. There were no excitement and nothing new. Everyday was just like same and no exciting. I went school because school was only place to I can play softball which needs me to play. I was captain of Jr team and I was really busy to had meeting with couch and Sr team. Only softball gave me a reason to go to school and not any more. I went same school for fifteen years and same friends and nothing new. I was skipped school and back to school when the practice time comes. When I was Gr9, it was the worse year to me. On the other hand, it changed my life. At that time, I was totally broken down. I opposed to everything especially school teachers and parents. They only care about study and doesn’t matter about who am I. They only said “Study hard” or “Get a good mark”. Especially my parents gave me a lot of pressure that gave me much stress. My school was really famous private school in Japan that gave me a stress too. I lost myself. I couldn’t find who am I and what is the meaning to stay in here. I felt I am like a doll. I just study because teacher pushed me to do and I just went to school because parents proud me to go to that school. When I stopped study, my parents took me away to play softball. I really lost the reason to go to school and I stopped to go to school. I just hung out with my boyfriend everyday and back to home late night. My parents try to me back to school but I just ignore them because I still couldn’t find the meaning to go to that boring school and what do I want. On the other way, I hoped to my parents see real me and give me a free. During my little strike, I learned a lot of thing from my boyfriend. Maybe I couldn’t stand without him at that time but happy time was gone so fast. I really trust him and only I could open my mind to him but he cheated me. He was going out with the other girl even we still going out. How painful it was!? He totally broke my hart and I scar to trust people. It still happens to me. If people got the pain to their hart, it takes a long time to fix. I was stay home all of time and I couldn’t eat anything. One day I got e-mail from softball teammates. The provincial game was coming up and they need me to play. I was really happy for it. My situation was nothing changes even it’s getting worse, but I was really happy for someone needs me. I went to school next day and one of my class’ teacher came and she was really worried about me. I never tell anything about me to teacher because I couldn’t trust them. She was the only one teacher who I told about me. She was my English teacher and at the first time, we hated her because she was something different as any other teachers. However, everybody loves her English class that makes me really interest to learn English. She became the one’s teacher. Se gave me a huge choice which is to go to Canada. My life changed when met her.
After Graduate to junior high school, I fly to Canada. There were everything new and I was exciting for mew meeting. However, I was still kids at that time. Dream and reality is totally different. On September, I was jumped into the Gr10 and then I realized how much my parents helped me and how much I was depending on my parents. I was not scar to meet people but….I couldn’t talk because different language. In my life, I never be a quiet and never be without friends. How hard to be alone and how hard to stay in different world. I had wishful thinking. I came here because I like to learn English, I want to see a world, and I wanted independent from parents. On the other way, it means “running away from my problem”. Now, I can say I just runaway with convenient reason. However, I’m so glad to come to Canada. It changed everything to be good. I can see myself clear much better than stay in Japan. Actually I changed a lot and I can be more positive and I can hold own opinions much stronger than before. The greatest thing is me and my parent’s relation changed. It was the worse when I was in Japan. But now, I can tell most of thing to my parents and I feel thank you to them to bring me in Canada. Right now I can love my parents. They always love me and they are the best people to understand me.
After Graduate, I’m still stay in Canada to go to university. I had a lot of argument with my parents about stay in Canada or not. My parents would like me to back to Japan but I don’t want to. I know why they want me to back to Japan and I felt maybe back to Japan. However, I decide to stay in here. The big reason to stay in here was I want to grant my dream. Finally I found my hope and dream so I want to keep it grow until I grant it. I’m little sad to graduate high school but if I think about university, I can’t wait to go. I usually hung out with Canadian’s university friends who are really funny and nice. They always tell me about funny university life and they always said “come to our place quickly and having a party everyday together!!” That is the one of reason to exciting to go to university. On the other way, university is kind of one step to my dream. Now, I can feel really claim and relax even I can see myself well. I know life has a lot of obstacle and it will come to me again for sure. To me, obstacles make me strong and grow me up. I try to be strong but actually I was not. I’m so glad to meet a lot of friends and I’m still looking for to see something new and new meeting.
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You have come such a long way! I hope that you do see your dreams fulfilled. Not too many parties at university though! :)
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